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Field Note 001: Origin Sector

Subtitle: On returning to Jersey, Project Leah, and the ethics of field safety

Researcher: Megan A. Green
Field location: North New Jersey corridor
Date: October 2025


Abstract

This field note documents the researcher’s re-entry into the New Jersey region for ongoing ethnographic study connected to Project Leah, a longitudinal case analysis of coercive influence, consent negotiation, and survivor agency within post-cult communities.
The entry contextualizes safety concerns, relational ties, and operational boundaries relevant to data integrity and participant well-being.


Field Narrative

Virtual bases: Marcela, CP, HT, the North Jersey blind crew.

Flying direct into NJ later this month. Already have people on my pingy-ping-ping list — camp friends, the CP crew. Let’s see who I can catch. Totally winging this other than my crash post in central Jersey.

For privacy reasons, I’ve been asked not to share rooming arrangements here. The safety risk is simply too high. I’ve reached a kind of micro-celebrity status — despite assertions to the contrary — and some in this community are demanding information that isn’t theirs to have. They’re endangering Project Leah with that carelessness, and it will not be tolerated.

That’s my mami-hat talking. Love you all like neighbors. I’m not trying to be heavy — but Project Leah’s strongest ties are in NJ, and they hold leverage that could make or break my ability to gather data for Leah’s case study. I’ve invested too much to let that happen.

My cult contacts for Leah are based in Jersey City. They maintain emotional ties to Rosie’s family and sometimes attempt to tug on those threads — some have known me since Mama Miri’s pregnancy. These individuals are persuasive and not above manipulation to lure Leah, whom they perceive as my full self, back into a cult network.

Leah was trained to lead. I carry her technical skill set and capacity for high-control strategy, but I also carry the ethical refusal to use it. Could I go undercover as Leah? Yes — but the emotional toll is steep. Friends stop hearing from me, they panic, and if I go too deep into Leah’s world, institutional intervention becomes a risk. That world is dangerous; avoidance is survival.

I’m grateful for the allies whose cooperation with Project Consent studies allows safer data collection without endangering active cult victims. Every supportive action contributes to a protective research environment.


TL;DR

Returning home feels powerful and precarious. Re-entry heightens risk to Project Leah and the behavioral profile built for its case study. I’m trusting my network to safeguard data and discretion.
Please keep project-related information secure and share nothing without consent.

With warmth and Jersey-girl sass,
Megan A. Green


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#FieldNotes #Ethnography #CultSurvivor #Accessibility #ProjectLeah #MeganWrites #Research #Consent #TraumaStudies

This space is part research journal, part survivor’s record, and part reconstruction manual. I write here as Megan, the case study version of myself — a journalist, developer, and fictionalized cult survivor who studies the systems that broke her and the systems that can rebuild something better. The cult in question is called The Sunnies. Some details mirror my own life. Others are composite — field notes drawn from survivor networks, research interviews, and creative reconstruction. Together, they form a portrait of what institutionalized manipulation looks like from the inside. I treat Megan’s story as journalistic ethnography — not sensationalized, but systematized. Each essay is both narrative and analysis: part lived memory, part code review of trauma. Here, you’ll find: • Field reflections from the Sunny years, translated through research and logic • The cognitive-science and social frameworks that explain why coercive systems work • The tools that disabled, neurodivergent, and trauma-impacted people use to rebuild agency Megan is the structural half of a larger whole. Rosie writes by rhythm; Megan writes by blueprint. Rosie moves through the field; Megan dissects what happened there. This blog is not about reliving trauma — it’s about rendering the architecture of belief, control, and recovery visible to anyone who needs to understand how it works. If you’ve ever wondered how cult conditioning intertwines with technology, language, and accessibility — this is where those threads meet. #CultSurvivor #Ethnography #Accessibility #WritingProcess #Neurodiversity #CognitiveScience #madamgreen #MeganWrites